Emma eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 596 pages of information about Emma.
morning, to be less disposed for employment than usual; she was still busy and cheerful; and, pleasing as he was, she could yet imagine him to have faults; and farther, though thinking of him so much, and, as she sat drawing or working, forming a thousand amusing schemes for the progress and close of their attachment, fancying interesting dialogues, and inventing elegant letters; the conclusion of every imaginary declaration on his side was that she refused him.  Their affection was always to subside into friendship.  Every thing tender and charming was to mark their parting; but still they were to part.  When she became sensible of this, it struck her that she could not be very much in love; for in spite of her previous and fixed determination never to quit her father, never to marry, a strong attachment certainly must produce more of a struggle than she could foresee in her own feelings.

“I do not find myself making any use of the word sacrifice,” said she.—­ “In not one of all my clever replies, my delicate negatives, is there any allusion to making a sacrifice.  I do suspect that he is not really necessary to my happiness.  So much the better.  I certainly will not persuade myself to feel more than I do.  I am quite enough in love.  I should be sorry to be more.”

Upon the whole, she was equally contented with her view of his feelings.

He is undoubtedly very much in love—­every thing denotes it—­very much in love indeed!—­and when he comes again, if his affection continue, I must be on my guard not to encourage it.—­It would be most inexcusable to do otherwise, as my own mind is quite made up.  Not that I imagine he can think I have been encouraging him hitherto.  No, if he had believed me at all to share his feelings, he would not have been so wretched.  Could he have thought himself encouraged, his looks and language at parting would have been different.—­ Still, however, I must be on my guard.  This is in the supposition of his attachment continuing what it now is; but I do not know that I expect it will; I do not look upon him to be quite the sort of man—­ I do not altogether build upon his steadiness or constancy.—­ His feelings are warm, but I can imagine them rather changeable.—­ Every consideration of the subject, in short, makes me thankful that my happiness is not more deeply involved.—­I shall do very well again after a little while—­and then, it will be a good thing over; for they say every body is in love once in their lives, and I shall have been let off easily.”

When his letter to Mrs. Weston arrived, Emma had the perusal of it; and she read it with a degree of pleasure and admiration which made her at first shake her head over her own sensations, and think she had undervalued their strength.  It was a long, well-written letter, giving the particulars of his journey and of his feelings, expressing all the affection, gratitude, and respect which was natural and honourable, and describing every

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