Inur’d to dangers, griefs,
Train’d up ’midst perils, deaths, and foes,
I said “Must it thus ever be?—
No quiet is permitted me.”
Hard hap, and more than heavy
I pray’d to God “Forget me not—
What thou ordain’st willing I’ll bear;
But O! deliver from despair!”
Strivings and wrestlings seem’d
Nothing I did could ease my pain:
Then gave I up my works and will,
Confess’d and own’d my doom was hell!
Like some poor pris’ner
at the bar,
Conscious of guilt, of sin and fear,
Arraign’d, and self-condemned, I stood—
‘Lost in the world, and in my blood!’
Yet here,’midst blackest
A beam from Christ, the day-star, shin’d;
Surely, thought I, if Jesus please,
He can at once sign my release.
I, ignorant of his righteousness,
Set up my labours in its place;
’Forgot for why his blood was shed,
And pray’d and fasted in its stead.’
He dy’d for sinners—I
Might not his blood for me atone?
Tho’ I am nothing else but sin,
Yet surely he can make me clean!
Thus light came in, and I
Myself forgot, and help receiv’d!
My Saviour then I know I found,
For, eas’d from guilt, no more I groan’d.
O, happy hour, in which I
To mourn, for then I found a rest!
My soul and Christ were now as one—
Thy light, O Jesus, in me shone!
Bless’d be thy name,
for now I know
I and my works can nothing do;
“The Lord alone can ransom man—
For this the spotless Lamb was slain!”
When sacrifices, works, and
Prov’d vain, and ineffectual were,
“Lo, then I come!” the Saviour cry’d,
And, bleeding, bow’d his head and dy’d!
He dy’d for all who
No help in them, nor by the law:—
I this have seen; and gladly own
“Salvation is by Christ alone[W]!”
[Footnote V: John xvi. 13, 14. &c.]
[Footnote W: Acts iv. 12.]
The author embarks on board a ship bound for Cadiz—Is near being shipwrecked—Goes to Malaga—Remarkable fine cathedral there—The author disputes with a popish priest—Picking up eleven miserable men at sea in returning to England—Engages again with Doctor Irving to accompany him to Jamaica and the Mosquito Shore—Meets with an Indian prince on board—The author attempts to instruct him in the truths of the Gospel—Frustrated by the bad example of some in the ship—They arrive on the Mosquito Shore with some slaves they purchased at Jamaica, and begin to cultivate a plantation—Some