I remember how every half-hour she came to speak to me and see if I were happy, and once, when she thought I was warm and tired, she took my hand and led me into the beautiful cool conservatory, where we sat and talked until I had grown cool again.  I see her talking with queenly grace and laughing eyes, no one forgotten or neglected, partners found for the least attractive girls, while the sunshine of her presence was everywhere.  She led a cotillion.  I remember seeing her stand waiting the signal, the very type of grace and beauty.

Oh, my darling, if I were with you!  As I saw her then I never saw her more.

I was present the next morning when my father and mother discussed the ball.

“How well you looked, Beatrice,” said my father.

“How well I felt,” she replied.  “I am quite sure, Roland, that I enjoy dancing far better now than I did before I was married.  I should like dancing parties a little oftener; they are much more amusing than your solemn dinner parties.”

But, ah me! the dancing feet were soon to be stilled; all the rest of that summer there was something mysterious—­every one was so solicitous about my mother—­they seemed to think of nothing but her health.  She was gay and charming herself, laughing at the fuss, anxiety and care.  Sir Roland was devoted to her; he never left her.  She took no more rides now on her favorite Sir Tristam, my father drove her carefully in the carriage; there were no more balls or parties; “extreme quiet and repose” seemed to be the keynote.  Mamma was always “resting.”

“She cannot want rest,” I exclaimed, “when she does nothing to tire her!  Oh, let me go to her!” for some foolish person had started a theory that I tired her.  I who worshiped her, who would have kept silence for a year rather than have disturbed her for one moment!  I appealed to Sir Roland, and he consulted her; the result was that I was permitted to steal into her boudoir, and, to my childish mind, it seemed that during those days my mother’s heart and mine grew together.

CHAPTER III.

It was a quiet Christmas at Tayne Abbey; we had no visitors, for my mother required the greatest care; but she did not forget one person in the house, or one on the estate.  Sir Roland laughed when he saw the preparations—­the beef, the blankets, the clothing of all kinds, the innumerable presents, for she had remembered every one’s wants and needs.  Sir Roland laughed.

“My dearest Beatrice,” he said; “this will cost far more than a houseful of guests.”

“Never mind the cost,” she said; “it will bring down a blessing on us.”