My Mother's Rival eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 77 pages of information about My Mother's Rival.

My Mother's Rival eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 77 pages of information about My Mother's Rival.

“Heaven send that it may last!” said Emma, when she heard of it.

I wonder if any angel repeated the prayer?

CHAPTER VII.

To me it seemed that I was as old at fifteen as many a girl of eighteen; I had lived so much with grown-up people; I had received all my impressions from them.  I was very quick and appreciative.  I read character well, and seemed to have a weird, uncanny insight into the thoughts and ideas of people—­into their motives and plans.  I had too much of this faculty, for I was often made uncomfortable because shadows came between me and others, and because I seemed to feel and understand things that I could never put into words.

Here is one little instance of what I mean:  I stood one afternoon at the window of my mother’s room.  The sun was shining brightly on the bloom of countless flowers and the feathery spray of the fountains; the whole place looked so bright and beautiful that it was a perfect picture.  I saw Miss Reinhart on the terrace; she was leaning over the stone balustrade admiring the magnificent view.  There was a restless, disconsolate expression mixed with her admiration, and I knew quite well the thoughts passing through her mind were, first, a vivid regret that the place was not hers, then a wonder as to the possibility of its ever belonging to her.  I could read it in the lingering, loving glance she threw round, followed by the impatient frown and restless movement.  The idea possessed me so strongly that I could not help going to my mother and clasping my arms round her neck, as though I would save her from all harm; but I did not tell her why.  I had learned my lesson; from first to last never a word passed my lips that could have grieved her even in the least, never.

The first thing that struck me in the manner of Miss Reinhart was the way in which she spoke to my father.  Now, I am quite sure, no matter what came afterward, that at that time my father was one of the most loyal and honest of men.  I am sure that he loved my mother with greatest affection:  that her illness made her all the more dear to him, and that he looked upon it as a trial equally great for both of them; he loved her the more for it, and he devoted himself to her to make up to her as much as he could for the privations that she had to undergo.  As for pitying himself, such an idea never occurred to him; of that I am certain.  All his love, pity, his compassion and sympathy, were for her, without any thought of himself; but she almost spoke to him as though he were to be pitied, as though he were very much injured and put upon, as though my mother’s illness were a wrong done to him.

At first I noticed that he, too, seemed somewhat surprised; that he would look half-wonderingly at her; then, at last, he fell into her mood.  She generally began at the breakfast table, where she came looking as beautiful as a picture; the loveliest hue of the rose on her face, the freshness of the morning in her dark eyes and on her lips; dressed with great elegance, always with one lovely flower in her hair, and a knot of fresh, fragrant blossoms at her breast; the fairest of women, but how I disliked her.  I can imagine that to any gentleman her society must have been extremely agreeable.

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