Without distinctly knowing whether I should have been
more sorry for Mr. Wopsle if he had been in despair,
I was so sorry for him as it was, that I took the
opportunity of his turning round to have his braces
put on — which jostled us out at the doorway
— to ask Herbert what he thought of having him
home to supper? Herbert said he thought it would
be kind to do so; therefore I invited him, and he
went to Barnard’s with us, wrapped up to the
eyes, and we did our best for him, and he sat until
two o’clock in the morning, reviewing his success
and developing his plans. I forget in detail
what they were, but I have a general recollection that
he was to begin with reviving the Drama, and to end
with crushing it; inasmuch as his decease would leave
it utterly bereft and without a chance or hope.
Miserably I went to bed after all, and miserably thought
of Estella, and miserably dreamed that my expectations
were all cancelled, and that I had to give my hand
in marriage to Herbert’s Clara, or play Hamlet
to Miss Havisham’s Ghost, before twenty thousand
people, without knowing twenty words of it.
Chapter 32
One day when I was busy with my books and Mr. Pocket,
I received a note by the post, the mere outside of
which threw me into a great flutter; for, though I
had never seen the handwriting in which it was addressed,
I divined whose hand it was. It had no set beginning,
as Dear Mr. Pip, or Dear Pip, or Dear Sir, or Dear
Anything, but ran thus:
“I am to come to London the day after to-morrow
by the mid-day coach. I believe it was settled
you should meet me? At all events Miss Havisham
has that impression, and I write in obedience to it.
She sends you her regard.
Yours, Estella.”
If there had been time, I should probably have ordered
several suits of clothes for this occasion; but as
there was not, I was fain to be content with those
I had. My appetite vanished instantly, and I
knew no peace or rest until the day arrived.
Not that its arrival brought me either; for, then
I was worse than ever, and began haunting the coach-office
in wood-street, Cheapside, before the coach had left
the Blue Boar in our town. For all that I knew
this perfectly well, I still felt as if it were not
safe to let the coach-office be out of my sight longer
than five minutes at a time; and in this condition
of unreason I had performed the first half-hour of
a watch of four or five hours, when Wemmick ran against
me.
“Halloa, Mr. Pip,” said he; “how
do you do? I should hardly have thought this
was your beat.”
I explained that I was waiting to meet somebody who
was coming up by coach, and I inquired after the Castle
and the Aged.
“Both flourishing thankye,” said Wemmick,
“and particularly the Aged. He’s
in wonderful feather. He’ll be eighty-two
next birthday. I have a notion of firing eighty-two
times, if the neighbourhood shouldn’t complain,
and that cannon of mine should prove equal to the
pressure. However, this is not London talk.
Where do you think I am going to?”