It is now decided that we go to England! Two years ago I should have returned there with gladness, but now!—I dread it. How changed will all appear without him whose ever-watchful affection anticipated every wish, and realised every hope! I ought to feel pleased at leaving Paris, where the heaviest trial of my life has occurred, but here I have now learned to get inured to the privation of his society, while in England I shall have again to acquire the hard lesson of resignation.
November, 1830.—This is the last entry I shall make in my journal in Paris, for to-morrow we depart for England.
I have passed the day in taking leave of those dear to me, and my spirits have failed under the effort. Some of them I shall probably never again behold. The dear and excellent Madame Craufurd is among those about whom I entertain the most melancholy presentiments, because at her advanced age I can hardly hope to find her, should I again return to France. She referred to this to-day with streaming eyes, and brought many a tear to mine by the sadness of her anticipations.
The Duc and Duchess de Guiche I shall soon see in England, on their route to Edinburgh, to join tho exiled family at Holyrood, for they are determined not to forsake them in adversity.
Adieu a Paris! two years and a half ago I entered you with gladness, and the future looked bright; I leave you with altered feelings, for the present is cheerless and the future clouded.
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[1: Now Baron d’Haussey.]
[2: The hermitage was lent him by Madame d’Epinay, to whom his subsequent ingratitude forms a dark page in her Memoires.]
[3: The present Lord Abinger.]
[4: Now Lord Glenelg.]
[5: Now Lord Francis Egerton.]
[6: Now Madame Emile de Girardin.]
[7: “Where thou beholdest Genius,
There thou beholdest, too, the martyr’s crown.”]
[8: The present Earl of Cadogan.]
[9: The Duc de Guiche, being premier menin to the Dauphin, used, according to custom, the arms and liveries of that prince.]
[10: Now Marechal.]
Antiquities of this City—The Hotel du Midi—Articles
Merchandise—History of the Maison Carree—Work of Poldo d’Albenas—The
Building described—Origin of it—Now used as a Museum—Monument to
Marcus Attius—Cardinal Alberoni—Barbarous Project—Removal of
Antiquities—The Amphitheatre described—Charles Martel—Excellent
Precaution in Roman Theatres—Inscription—Officious Cicerone—Gate of
Augustus—La Tour-Magne—Excavations—Fine Fountain—Temple of
Diana—Brevity of Human Life, 1.