house, her place in that happy home would be a void.
On the morrow, ay, the morrow, for the intervening
weeks had fled, her child would be another’s.
True, but few miles would separate their homes; true,
that he on whom that precious gift would be bestowed,
was in all respects the husband she would have selected
for her Caroline, the husband for whom the involuntary
prayer had arisen; virtue and piety, manliness and
sincerity were his, besides these attributes, which
to some mothers would have been far more brilliant,
he was noble, even of exalted rank; but all, all these
things were forgotten in the recollection, that on
the morrow she must bid farewell to her cherished
treasure, the link, the precious link of protection
would be severed, and for ever. Thoughts of the
past mingled with the present, and softened yet more
that fond mother’s feelings. Pain, bitter
pain, Caroline had sometimes cost her, but pleasure,
exquisite in its kind, had mingled with it. No
longer would it be hers to watch with trembling joy
the dawning virtues which had flourished beneath her
eye; a link would be broken between them, a slender
one indeed, but still broken,—though Mrs.
Hamilton reproached herself for indulging in such
feelings of sadness, when so many blessings promised
to gild the lot of her child. And yet, alas! what
mother devoted to her children as she had been, and
still was this noble and gentle woman, could part
from a beloved one even for a brief space, even for
happiness, without one pang, selfish as it might be,
selfish as perhaps it was? for anxiety for the future
darkened not the prospects of earthly bliss, her trust
in the character of St. Eval was too confiding; it
was only her fond heart which for a time would be
so desolate. Her ear would linger in vain for
the voice it loved; her eye seek in sorrow for the
graceful form, the beauteous features on which it had
so loved to gaze. New ties would supply to Caroline
the place of all that she had left; deep springs of
fond emotions, such as she had never felt before, would
open in her heart, and then would she still love, would
she still look to that mother, as in childhood and
in youth she had done? Vainly she struggled to
subdue these thoughts, and bring forward in their stead
the visions of happiness, which alone had visited
her before. Thronging and tumultuously they came,
and tears stole slowly from those mild eyes, which
for herself so seldom wept; while engrossed in her
own reflections, she heard not the soft and careful
opening of her door, she knew not that the beloved
object of those tears had entered her room, and was
kneeling beside her.
“Mother!” murmured Caroline, in a voice tremulous and weak with emotion equal to her own. Mrs. Hamilton started, and her lip quivered with the effort she made to smile her greeting. “Mother, my own mother, forgive my intrusion; I thought not to have found you thus. Oh, deem me not failing in that deep reverence your goodness, your devotedness, have taught me to feel for you; if my love would bid me ask you why you weep, may I not share your sorrow, mother?”