Then the spirit drove me into the wilderness to my mountains and valleys, by the side of the great sea and by the haunted forests.  Once more the vast dome of heaven became the roof of my house, and within the house was rebuilded that which my soul called beautiful.  There I refound my God, and my being re-expressed itself to itself in terms of eternal Mysteries.  I vowed I should never again belong to the town.

As upon a spring day the face of heaven is hid and a storm descends, winds ruffle the bosom of a pure lake, the flowers droop, wet, the birds cease singing, and rain rushes over all, and then anon the face of heaven clears, the sun shines forth, the flowers look up in tears, the birds sing again, and the pure lake reflects once more the pure depth of the sky, so now my glad soul, which had lost its sun, found it again and remembered its birds and its flowers.

II

NIGHTS OUT ON A PERFECT VAGABONDAGE

I

I have been a whole season in the wilds, tramping or idling on the Black Sea shore, living for whole days together on wild fruit, sleeping for the most part under the stars, bathing every morning and evening in the clear warm sea.  It is difficult to tell the riches of the life I have had, the significance of the experience.  I have felt pulse in my veins wild blood which my instincts had forgotten in the town.  I have felt myself come back to Nature.

During the first month after my departure from the town I slept but thrice under man’s roof.  I slept all alone, on the hillside, in the maize-fields, in the forest, in old deserted houses, in caves, ruins, like a wild animal gone far afield in search of prey.  I never knew in advance where I should make my night couch; for I was Nature’s guest and my hostess kept her little secrets.  Each night a new secret was opened, and in the secret lay some pleasant mystery.  Some of the mysteries I guessed—­there are many guesses in these pages—­some I only tried to guess, and others I could only wonder over.  All manner of mysterious things happen to us in sleep; the sick man is made well, the desperate hopeful, the dull man happy.  These things happen in houses which are barred and shuttered and bolted.  The power of the Night penetrates even into the luxurious apartments of kings, even into the cellars of the slums.  But if it is potent in these, how much more is it potent in its free unrestricted domain, the open country.  He who sleeps under the stars is bathed in the elemental forces which in houses only creep to us through keyholes.  I may say from experience that he who has slept out of doors every day for a month, nay even for a week, is at the end of that time a new man.  He has entered into new relationship with the world in which he lives, and has allowed the gentle creative hands of Nature to re-shape his soul.

The first of my nights after leaving the town was spent on a shaggy grass patch on a cliff, under three old twisted yew trees.  Underfoot was an abundance of wild lavender and the air was laden with the scent.  I am now at New Athos monastery, ten miles from Sukhum, and am writing this in the cell that the hospitable monks have given me.  My last night was in a deep cavern at the base of a high rock on a desert shore.