“Cruel miss,” said Mr. Guppy, “hear
but another word! I think you must have seen
that I was struck with those charms on the day when
I waited at the Whytorseller. I think you must
have remarked that I could not forbear a tribute to
those charms when I put up the steps of the ’ackney-coach.
It was a feeble tribute to thee, but it was well
meant. Thy image has ever since been fixed in
my breast. I have walked up and down of an evening
opposite Jellyby’s house only to look upon the
bricks that once contained thee. This out of
to-day, quite an unnecessary out so far as the attendance,
which was its pretended object, went, was planned
by me alone for thee alone. If I speak of interest,
it is only to recommend myself and my respectful wretchedness.
Love was before it, and is before it.”
“I should be pained, Mr. Guppy,” said
I, rising and putting my hand upon the bell-rope,
“to do you or any one who was sincere the injustice
of slighting any honest feeling, however disagreeably
expressed. If you have really meant to give me
a proof of your good opinion, though ill-timed and
misplaced, I feel that I ought to thank you.
I have very little reason to be proud, and I am not
proud. I hope,” I think I added, without
very well knowing what I said, “that you will
now go away as if you had never been so exceedingly
foolish and attend to Messrs. Kenge and Carboy’s
business.”
“Half a minute, miss!” cried Mr. Guppy,
checking me as I was about to ring. “This
has been without prejudice?”
“I will never mention it,” said I, “unless
you should give me future occasion to do so.”
“A quarter of a minute, miss! In case
you should think better at any time, however distant—that’s
no consequence, for my feelings can never alter—of
anything I have said, particularly what might I not
do, Mr. William Guppy, eighty-seven, Penton Place,
or if removed, or dead (of blighted hopes or anything
of that sort), care of Mrs. Guppy, three hundred and
two, Old Street Road, will be sufficient.”
I rang the bell, the servant came, and Mr. Guppy,
laying his written card upon the table and making
a dejected bow, departed. Raising my eyes as
he went out, I once more saw him looking at me after
he had passed the door.
I sat there for another hour or more, finishing my
books and payments and getting through plenty of business.
Then I arranged my desk, and put everything away,
and was so composed and cheerful that I thought I
had quite dismissed this unexpected incident.
But, when I went upstairs to my own room, I surprised
myself by beginning to laugh about it and then surprised
myself still more by beginning to cry about it.
In short, I was in a flutter for a little while and
felt as if an old chord had been more coarsely touched
than it ever had been since the days of the dear old
doll, long buried in the garden.
CHAPTER X
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